Golden Bachelor Gerry Turner reveals in his new memoir that he struggled with suicidal ideation within the wake of his break up from Theresa Nist, Us Weekly can affirm.
In an excerpt from the ebook, titled Golden Years: What I’ve Realized From Love, Loss, and Actuality TV, and obtained by TMZ on Monday, November 3, Turner, 74, particulars his disgrace — and fleeting suicidal ideas — after he and Nist, 72, introduced their divorce in April 2024. (The Golden Bachelor exes tied the knot three months earlier on ABC.)
“If there could be a number of feedback concerning the rumors and press about me, regardless of how properly meant and sympathetic they had been (Gerry we’re-so-sorry stuff), I didn’t need to go,” he wrote within the excerpt, which has been confirmed by Us. “I began avoiding individuals altogether, whether or not by strolling circuitously to my vacation spot so I didn’t move a buddy’s home or parking behind the grocery store and strolling via the much less trafficked entrance so I didn’t move the greeter.”
Turner added, “Individuals making an attempt to be supportive had been probably the most tough to take care of. I may simply write off the haters, however how may I inform these whose intentions had been good, ‘Please, cease speaking about it!’ I used to be sick of speaking about myself. I wished to be invisible.”
He discovered himself battling intrusive ideas, day and night time.
“At a sure level,” he wrote, “I didn’t even need to get off the bed. Once I went to sleep at night time, I might attempt to discover one thing constructive and uplifting to consider, however the horrible feedback had been too loud.”
Turner continued, “One night time, whereas I used to be mendacity in mattress and staring up on the ceiling, all of it turned an excessive amount of, and for the briefest of moments, I considered placing a gun to my head. Simply as shortly although, I considered [daughters] Jenny and Angie. I may by no means try this to my daughters, however I don’t consider I really wished to kill myself. My suicidal ideas had been extra of an expression of my want to vanish.”
The fact star mentioned that he was “used to having a marathon mentality whereby I may endure any type of ache for a time as a result of I knew it could ultimately go away. This appeared prefer it was by no means going away.”
In October, Turner revealed that he’s fortunately engaged to Lana Sutton. Final week, he appeared on the “Bachelor Completely happy Hour” podcast final week to handle criticism that he had moved on too quickly after divorcing one 12 months earlier.
“I don’t need to sound disrespectful in any respect. I don’t consider myself as being divorced,” Turner mentioned on the October 28 episode, explaining, “It was such a short while and it was, you already know, in a synthetic setting that I’ve to cease myself and say, ‘Yeah, you already know what? I’m divorced. It’s not like I’m that man that was married 43 years after which did nothing.’ I’m divorced.”
Turner and Nist met through the inaugural season of 2023’s The Golden Bachelor, and exchanged vows throughout a televised ceremony in January 2024.
Turner filed for divorce that April, citing an “irretrievable breakdown” of their marriage as the explanation for the break up.
When The Golden Bachelor premiered in 2023, Gerry Turner appeared just like the splendidly earnest antidote to the franchise’s typical chaos — a Midwestern widower with a young coronary heart and simply the correct quantity of pop (even grandpa!) vitality. Because the inaugural lead of the present’s later-in-life spinoff, By the point he proposed to Theresa Nist […]
In Golden Years, Turner claimed he advised Religion Martin — the second runner-up on the present — that he felt “trapped” forward of marrying Nist. Whereas recalling the second throughout an unique interview with Us, Turner shared that he “felt like [he] was doing the best factor” by strolling down the aisle.
