TikTok star Ophelia Nichols, greatest often known as Mama Tot, received actual about one of the painful days she’s had following the sudden demise of her little one.
As we beforehand reported, the beloved social media persona has been mourning the lack of her 18-year-old son Randon Lee after he was shot and killed at a fuel station in Alabama on June 24 – simply at some point earlier than his nineteenth birthday – in a drug deal gone flawed. The Prichard Police Division revealed the teenager was promoting marijuana on the time of the taking pictures, inflicting “shock on prime of the grief” for Ophelia.
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Ever for the reason that deadly incident, she’s been open concerning the grieving course of along with her followers (or her Tater Tots) on the social media platform. And earlier this week, Ophelia hopped on TikTok to speak a couple of current go to to the seaside she went on along with her household for a “day of therapeutic.” Alongside footage from the journey to the shore, she expressed:
“I can not lie, the previous three days have in all probability been the worst for me. And I’ve did all the pieces single factor that I inform y’all I do. I discover not less than the enjoyment in one thing day-after-day in order that I can chuckle or smile, however the one factor that I’ve been patiently ready to do is go and be by the water ever since my household has been via the toughest second of our life.”
As a result of Ophelia and her kids grew up close to the water, she defined that the seaside day was supposed to assist her “really feel the closest to my child little one simply sitting on the sand all on my own.” She continued:
“I sat in silenced for a short while, simply in order that I can speak to my child little one. I do know he’s listening. We had a very good day right this moment regardless of the rain.”
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When a fan requested if Randon had given her “any indicators that he’s there,” Ophelia defined in one other video posted on Thursday that one week earlier than he handed away, she discovered a bluejay feather and determined to maintain it. She ended up placing the feather within the casket along with her son. Since then, lots of her followers have additionally discovered bluejay feathers and despatched them to her to gather. The influencer even noticed one throughout her “therapeutic” day on the seaside, recalling:
“After I walked out to the water, I used to be on my own, and the one factor that I see floating within the water was this feather. So I grabbed it, and I knew he was with me.”
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Regardless of the touching expertise, Ophelia tearfully shared one other heartbreaking second she mentioned within the feedback of a clip on Friday that occurs “typically all through the day.” She lamented within the video:
“So I’m in grief remedy, and I began that just a few weeks in the past. I’m glad I did, however my therapist informed me that I have to be taught to talk on issues once I suppose it. I like my alone time, and I prefer to be on my own. I don’t like to inform anyone what I’m going via or what I’m feeling. … I’m going to share with y’all what I simply felt. Earlier than my child little one handed, since I’ve been on social media, I might see different individuals’s movies about how they misplaced their little one. And I believed to myself, I wouldn’t know what to do, and right here I’m doing it identical to them. I’m certainly one of them.”
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No mother or father ought to need to undergo one thing as devastating as this. Our hearts proceed to exit to Ophelia and her household as they grieve the lack of Randon.
[Image via Ophelia Nichols/Instagram/TikTok]
