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![Hayden Panettiere arrives at her younger brother Jansen's celebration of life event in their hometown of Palisades, New York, with her on/off boyfriend Brian Hickerson. The grieving actress wore a colorful bomber jacket and black pants as she attended the memorial at the scenic Palisades Presbyterian Church alongside her mother Lesley Vogel and father Alan ‘Skip’ Panettiere, on Wednesday morning. Jansen’s girlfriend Cat Michie, who has posted a heartfelt tribute to him on social media, was also seen at the venue. ‘Scream, 6’ star Hayden, 33, was expected to speak at the event, which was being held in remembrance of the 28-year-old former child actor, who died last month due to an enlarged heart. A friend of the former actor told officials he'd checked on Jansen at home after he'd failed to show up for a business meeting. Upon arrival, he was found sitting upright in a chair unresponsive. Jansen's dad, Skip, had spoken to his son on the phone just the night before, and thought he "sounded okay." On Wednesday, friends and family came together at the small church which is just a few miles away from Jansen's apartment in Nyack where he was found dead. 08 Mar 2023 Pictured: Brian Hickerson, Hayden Panettiere. Photo credit: MEGA TheMegaAgency.com +1 888 505 6342 (Mega Agency TagID: MEGA953084_001.jpg) [Photo via Mega Agency]](https://hollywoodlife.com/wp-content/uploads/2022/07/Hayden-Panettiere-jansen-memorial-mega-02.jpg?fit=330%2C440)
Hayden Panettiere remembers a distressing second when she was 18 years outdated in her new memoir, This Is Me: A Reckoning, which was launched on Tuesday, Might 19. Within the e-book, the Scream VI actress, now 36, recalled being on a celebrity-filled “tremendous yacht,” when a feminine buddy informed her to “get in mattress” with an older, well-known man. The revelation prompted followers to surprise who Hayden was speaking about.
“My physique now not felt like my very own,” Hayden recalled in a single excerpt from her e-book, which additionally delves into her previous with habit, struggles residing within the highlight, her relationships and household. “‘Oh my God,’ I assumed. ‘Is he bare beneath there?’” she wrote, claiming that her trusted buddy whispered to her, “I would like you to get in mattress with him,” earlier than leaving the room.
Hayden solely referred to the person as a “well-known thirty-something British singer-songwriter.” She complied along with her buddy’s demand by stepping into mattress.
“As quickly because the door clicked shut, my survival intuition kicked in,” the Heroes alum wrote within the e-book, earlier than revealing what she informed the unnamed man. “Look … I don’t know what she mentioned to you, however this isn’t going to occur.”
Upon leaving the room, Hayden started to pack up her issues to depart the yacht.
“I felt like I’d been kicked within the face,” she wrote, referring to the betrayal she felt by the unnamed feminine buddy. “She’d confided in me, pampered me and handled me like her greatest buddy — then rotated and handled me like a name lady.”
The discharge of Hayden’s e-book comes one week after she appeared on Jay Shetty’s “On Goal” podcast to debate the memoir and, significantly, the yacht incident.
“The truth that I used to be 18, though I’d lived such an enormous life and I assumed I used to be oh so mature at 18 … scientifically, your frontal lobes don’t develop till we’re what, 25, 26?” Hayden identified within the Might 11 episode. “So, though I felt like I might make wholesome selections, secure selections, I wasn’t able to being absolutely conscious of what was occurring round me.”
She added that the bed room demand from the lady “took [her] abruptly.”
